She Punished Herself by Sleeping on the Couch After Her Beloved Cat Passed Away! An Angelic Tuxedo' Words Brought Redemption: "I'll Guide Myself Home When You Let Go of the Guilt."

"Did I make all the wrong decisions, which is why He left me?" This was the question haunting a pet owner who recently booked a session after the passing of her beloved cat. She had been punishing herself by sleeping in the living room, feeling that she hadn't cared for her cat adequately. Only by making herself uncomfortable could she feel worthy of the departed feline.

"Was I negligent in noticing his gradual weight loss? Did I give him his usual dosage of medication, resulting in an overdose that his body couldn't handle?" "Should I have come home to assist with tube feeding instead of feeding him before leaving? Would he not have choked if someone had been there?" Dio's human sister harbored a million unanswered questions, fearful that her mismanagement of medication dosages had caused Dio to be constantly drowsy during his final days. The thought of leaving him alone after tube feeding, only for him to choke unnoticed, tormented her, and she desperately sought answers through communication.

The story of Dio began when her boyfriend adopted him during her second year of college. Initially, she and her boyfriend were Dio's parents, but upon bringing him home to her family, her mother, who had always opposed cats, fell in love with Dio after he showed her his belly. She and her boyfriend were automatically demoted to older siblings, ceding the mother's throne to her. Dio's charm extended to other stray cats, whom her mother later agreed to adopt, bringing the total number of cats in the family to five. The owner was fiercely protective of Dio's status as the eldest, with the other cats having to wait their turn to eat the delicacies he had chosen. After all, Dio was the first cat to accompany her through the youthful years of her life. "That’s why I’ve always felt guilty towards him. He was like my test cat. I only learned how to care for the later cats after making many mistakes on him."

At nine years old, Dio developed stomatitis due to autoimmune issues, and long-term steroid use led to diabetes. At twelve, he was diagnosed with pancreatitis. One month prior to his passing, Dio suddenly refused to eat or drink. The vet suggested inserting a nasogastric tube to restore his strength. The owner meticulously separated Chinese and Western medicines, carefully adding them to the tube feeding, and cautiously administered stomatitis medication and probiotics separately. She was worried that Dio would follow in the footsteps of Ami, a stray cat she had cared for earlier in the year, who had recently passed away.

Since Dio became too weak to climb stairs, his human sister arranged for him to sleep in the living room. Fearing that something might happen to him during the night, she asked her tortoiseshell sister cat to keep him company. "I just casually mentioned it, but I didn't expect her to actually go." Eventually, she led the other four cats to sleep in the living room with Dio. After Dio passed, her heart ached, and she didn't want to feel better, so she insisted on not returning to her bedroom.

During the communication, Dio said, "Sister, you took care of me meticulously, yet you're still questioning what you did wrong?" "I know you have many regrets, but I can't tell you which decision was right and which was wrong. In my eyes, everything you did was in the hopes of making me feel better. You're agonizing because you haven't figured out that no matter how you choose or decide, you can't beat fate." He used an analogy, adding, "If the destination and arrival time are already set, whether you take a train or a plane, the result is the same. Does that make it easier to understand?" "Remember when Ami left, you kept blaming yourself. This time I left, and you're still the same. How have you not improved? You still have several others. You can't die with each of us every time!"

But Dio also knew that it was impossible for his human sister to stop grieving immediately. "If you think suffering is the only way to be worthy of me, then be willful for a while, but every self-blaming thought is like cutting yourself with a knife, you know? It makes Dio’s heart ache, don't you know that?" "You can punish yourself by making yourself uncomfortable, but you're also punishing me, just because I didn't get better, Sister, am I no longer a good baby?" Hearing this, the owner suddenly felt awakened. "I seem to be emotionally blackmailing him with my pain." "Will you come back as my cat child or a human child?" "Sister, the body is like a vehicle carrying the soul. If the vehicle is old and broken, it's normal to change to another one. If you want me to drive back, pray more and let your prayers be like a navigation system, guiding me back to your side, okay?" "I promise you, when your mood gradually calms down and you can stop blaming yourself, I will try to see how I can reunite with you, but I don't want to when you're still sad, because that kind of energy is not good, and the child born will be unhappy."

Although Dio didn't guarantee that he could be reincarnated as her human child, the owner had an extra glimmer of hope. Finally, she promised Dio that she would work hard to make herself better. "I want to reunite with him. I want to give him positive energy!"